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Yes, I Know How Long It's Been Since I Posted Last...

... so there's no need to remind me. 

Sending me emails demanding I post again doesn't make me write faster. 

It doesn't make the things I have to do after being away from home for a month get done any quicker.

It doesn't make all the work I must complete for the fifth book's looming deadline go away. 

All it does is extend the time between posts because now in addition to being really busy, I'm annoyed.

Listen, I love writing for an audience and I'm happy to share my life with you both online and in print.  I appreciate having each and every one of you as readers and I value your feedback.   

But, seriously, enough with the demands already.

I'll post again after the holiday.

In the meantime, please keep in mind that George R.R. Martin is not your bitch.

I Was So Lucky Getting Mono. That Was, Like, The Best Diet Ever.

The big surprise - and it's not really even a surprise - is that the new book is a prequel to Bitter.  The bulk of it takes place in the 70's and 80's and it's super nostalgic, which is going to nicely tie into the theme of the tour events.  (Oh, wait.  I guess that's the surprise.  Shhh, you didn't hear it from me.)

While writing Pretty in Plaid, I spent a lot of time with my old yearbooks on display for inspiration.  As I listened to my favorite 80's tunes from Wham and Duran Duran and Culture Club, I pored over the faded pages, reliving every speech meet... every school play... every newspaper assignment... and all the other nerdy activities in which I was involved. 

In terms of my social standing, I turn to Milhouse in the Grade School Confidential episode of The Simpsons to best sum it up.  "Three and a half.  We get beat up, but we get an explanation." 

Granted, I was kind of a bitch back in the day, but mostly because I was A) terrified of garnering the attention/ire of the popular kids, and B) couldn't ever eat lunch, having derived the bulk of my self esteem from wedging myself into a pair of size five Jordache jeans. 

You guys?  A single grilled cheese sandwich could have been disastrous. 

So I'd say my low blood sugar was as much to blame as my aggressive-following personality. 

I may have been an ass in high school, but I was only an ass to those who posed a direct threat, e.g. in competition for boyfriends, a speech team rival, at the newspaper, etc.  I've never claimed to be a saint, but I was always empathetic.  I was absolutely, unapologetically mean to the play leads and the prom queens, yet I went out of my way to be kind to those people the popular kids shunned. 

You do not fuck with an underdog on my watch. 

If you wrote bad poetry on the knee of your jeans?  I was sweet to you. 

The boy-crazy boys?  We were BFF.

 Kids who received discounted lunch tickets?  Mock them and you had to answer to me.

Wore your saddle shoes and pleated cheerleading skirt on game days?  Bitch, you were going down.       

I guess that's why I was kind of floored to receive this note today, almost twenty-four years after high school graduation:

So my daughter calls me today and this was the conversation:

Daughter - Mom, I have a strange question
 
Mom - OK; what is it?
 
Daughter - Do you know a girl named Jennifer Lancaster?
 
Mom - Unfortunately yes, why do you ask?
 
Daughter - I had purchased a book and she made a reference to [our hometown] in 1985
 
Mom-  Unbelievable!
 
Daughter - Were you two friends?
 
Mom - Far from it.  I went to high school with her, church and spent two weeks at bible camp with her in the same cabin.  She made no hesitation in letting people know she did not like you.  She would giggle, point, comment on me whenever I went to church.  She was a person who I considered a snob and someone I would classify as being one of the girls on the movie "Mean Girls."  She was not a nice person.
 
Daughter - Oh sorry, I thought you two were friends.
 
Mom - Nope...What is her book about?
 
Daughter - About losing weight?
 
Mom - Hmmm.... (I'll keep the rest of my comments to myself)

How funny I thought that my daughter would end up purchasing a book written by someone who made a point to let me know she didn't like me.
 
Now my daughter is 19 and she has her own life and does what she wants.  But I will tell you this.. If I would have purchased the book and found out that you wrote it.. I would have asked for a refund.

Um, here's the thing... I HAVE NO IDEA WHO THIS PERSON IS.

I'm sitting here with my yearbook open and... yeah, I've got nothing.  We were enemies?  How could we be?  Her name rings no bells, nor does her face.  And I clearly remember who I didn't like in high school, having just written all those stories for this new book.  This girl is just, well, she's Ann Veal.  She's a blank slate.  She's got a low center of gravity.  You'd accidentally forget her in Mexico.  Under her picture it says "Not pictured."  (This will only be funny if you're an Arrested Development fan.) 

I mean, I feel bad that she's harbored a grudge against me all these years but, again, I HAVE NO CLUE WHO SHE IS.  If I recalled being a jerk, I'd apologize.  I don't want people mad at me.  And I love hearing from high school classmates.  If I were to get a Facebook request from my worst high school enemy now, I'd be all, "OHMIGHOD, HOW ARE YOU, WE MUST GET TOGETHER, SQUEEEE!!" 

Seriously, I embrace my past and I take responsibility for my actions.   

But this girl? 

With this reaction? 

Oh, sweetie, you've kind of got to let it got.  We went to camp together in 1981, which is just about the time I stopped having to go to church, so I'm pretty sure we've had zero interaction since then or else I would have known you. 

Does it not stand to reason I might be a different person at 41 years old than I was at 13??  I mean, I don't have a Dorothy Hamill haircut now and I no longer cut shots of Jimmy Baio (Scott's cousin from Soap) out of TigerBeat.  I'm pretty sure I didn't get Botox back then, so is it possible I could have changed a tiny bit for the better in the past twenty-eight years?  Matured, perhaps? 

Besides, did we learn nothing from Romy and Michele's High School Reunion?  Everyone gets picked on in high school, regardless of social stature.  To paraphrase my favorite scene, "The whole time you were making my life hell, the 'A' group was making your life hell?  I didn't know."  "I hurt your feelings?"  "Yeah, all the time."  "That's tremendous!  Go get your stupid yearbook.  I would be happy to sign it."

Anyway, I'm not claiming to not be a an asshole now because I kind of couldn't help myself after getting blind-sighted.  My response?  "I seriously don't know who you are." 

To which she replied, "It's usually the people who get made fun of who wear the scars and remember.  Good luck with your diet."

OK, not only did she call me out on shit of which I have no recollection, but she also just called me fat?  Granted, it's true.  But that's not karma, honey... it's carbs.  And choices.  And I've made peace with both.

When I tweeted a synopsis, my friend Badger summed it up best:  "I graduated high school in 1984. Anyone who's been pissed at me THAT long can bite me on their way to getting a life." 

Yeah.  What she said.

Yet there's a tiny part of me that agonizes over someone who I may have inadvertently impacted.

So there's that.

 

And I Didn't Mention Spy Kids, Either

First, a word from Stacey:

Dear Friends and Fans (Frans?) of Jen -
 
I am touched, humbled, and so very very grateful for your voting for me and my little cocktail.  (and yes, Jen knows that I fully intend to give her and you all the credit if I get the trip, and that she can request I deliver Mionetini’s to her whenever she likes for the rest of her natural life!)  I have had the good fortune to meet some of you at Jen’s events, and I am always struck by what a truly fun, warm, smart group you are.  Which doesn’t really surprise me, since like attracts like, and Jen is a major source of light in my universe and I am daily glad to have her in my life, so it goes to follow that her Frans are a group I would be damn lucky to know and raise a glass with.
 
I will be waiting until the whole thing is over to post the article as promised, in part because the outcome will affect the ending which I will need to rewrite as a result of your amazing generosity. 
 
In the meantime, I wanted to make sure that I acknowledged you all…and that includes those of you who haven’t yet voted, I thank you in advance for your support.  My mom would probably prefer that I send you all individual thank you notes on decent stationary, but as I do not have your addresses, I hope you will forgive me that little bit of etiquette.  However, if you go to my website, www.staceyballis.com and send me a note via the Contact page, you will at least have your personalized e-mail asap.   
 
(and I should say, in the spirit of sportsmanship, if you scroll down the list and see a cocktail you think is tastier sounding than mine, do feel free to vote for them instead…)
 
FYI:  grains of paradise, really cool African pepper, less bite than black pepper with hints of floral and citrus notes and really yummy on salads.  You can get it here:  www.thespicehouse.com
 
Elderflower liqueur:  St. Germain  (about $28 a bottle, but it is a beautiful bottle!)
 
I send you all deep thanks, and will keep you posted!
 
Rock the Vote.
 
Biglove, 
Stacey

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By the way, if you host an '80's party, talk to Stacey and she'll give you a blueprint for exactly how to do it.  For my party, she nailed the smallest details like suggesting I serve Razzles on the buffet and play movies such as Lost Boys and Labyrinth on the TVs in the background.  Fortunately, she even came early to help set up.  However, I did lose twenty minutes of valuable prep time gawping at her level of authenticity.  Observe:

 

And, yeah, that IS an original Hands Across America pin.  (Not pictured: hot pink tights and Pumas.)  She even ordered shoulder pads and baby-blue mascara online.

We were all duly awed. 

When she was leaving her house, she ran into her neighbor who before she turned around said, "Hey, where are you going all dressed up for... (long, awkward pause) the eighties?"  My sole disappointment is that she didn't respond, "Where I'm going, we don't need any roads." 

(Award yourself ten points if you got the Back to the Future reference.)

(Which she also has in her video library, along with Lost Boys and Labyrinth.)

ANYWAY, before Stacey decided to write full time she was Education Director at the Goodman Theatre.  What this means now is she gets free tickets to every opening night.  This week her date had to cancel last minute so she invited me to see the Eugene O'Neill play Desire Under the Elms starring Brian Dennehy and Carla Gugino.  I said yes with the caveat that no one would get naked on stage, unlike the last time I went out to get a little culture with her.

Technically, this time no one got naked... instead, two people stripped.  TWO!  However, they weren't wrapped in enormous sheets of dry-cleaning film, nor were they dropping plastic babies out of their dresses or wearing gas masks so the nudity made sense within the context of the show.  Also, Dennehy kept his pants on the whole time.  That was nice.

Because of Stacey's connections, we were invited to the cast party afterward, meaning I got to meet the stars.  Some of you may be aware of my level of social retardation and had I blurted, "I loved you as Big Tom Callahan!" upon meeting Dennehy, I doubt anyone would be surprised... but I didn't.  Yay, me!  Who says I no longer show personal growth on this blog? 

(I mean, other than the ex-fan who emailed me to say this yesterday.) 

(My friend Texie who's been reading my blog since 2003 was all, "Did it ever?")

I also managed not to bring up the Pauly Shore connection when I met Gugino.  Somehow mentioning Son in Law seemed wrong after she'd given the performance of a lifetime on one of the most prestigious stages in the world.  I'd count this in the win column except I kind of spent too much time grilling her on the wig she wore on stage.  Pretty much our conversation consisted of me sputtering and sweating Sauvignon Blanc, saying:

"Hey!  That wasn't your real hair.  It really looked like your real hair.  Your own hair is dark.  I almost missed saying hi to you because you look different with your real hair.  Hey, that is your real hair, right?  It's way darker than I thought.  I went dark now, too.  Not as dark as you though.  Yours is super dark.  Like, black.  Inky black.  Super black.  Tar black.  But good, you know?  I like it.  Black is the new black, ha ha!  The dark is nice, but the wig was also nice.  Didn't your hair used to be the color of your wig?  You know, you could kind of look at the play from your wig's perspective.  I mean, your 'do told a story.  First it was all tight and rolled, and then it got sort of loose and then it got all messy and then-"

At this point Stacey noticed she was making scaredy-get-this-weirdo-away-from-me-eyes so Stacey explained that we had to go.  I shook Gugino's hand and was summarily yanked away before I could lay a paw on her hair.  

Which is probably for the best.   

As we were walking to the car, I said to Stacey, "So I guess I had a fifty percent success ratio at the party.  Gugino thinks I'm bugfuck crazy - with a possible wig fetish - but I didn't embarrass myself in front of Dennehy. "

Stacey looked thoughtful and replied, "Yeah, but if this evening were baseball, you'd be batting .500.  That's an excellent statistic.  Good job!"

And that's precisely why I adore her.

Thanks again for your vote!

I'm Working on a Real Post, But This Had to Be Said First

Dear Bank of America,

I hope you slide under a gas truck and die tasting your own blood.

Best,

Jen

P.S.  And yes, this IS about being charged $105 in fees for Fletch's three trips to Starbucks last Friday because you chose to hold his direct deposit until Monday.  The salted caramel hot chocolates are good, but they're not that fucking good.

P.P.S.  Don't even get me started about how you held my last book check for TEN business days or I swear I will find the nearest bell tower.

"You've Found A Kindred Spirit In Crap Music"*

I've been off the grid lately.  Between real vacation, accidental vacation, deadlines, and living in a house that has suddenly gone from three baths to one, the blog's gotten lost in the shuffle. 

Plus, I didn't think I had anything to write about but apparently each of the above topics could stand to be addressed, so here goes.

Part One, Real Vacation

It was, in a word, lovely  (if for no reason other than not having to share a bathroom with Fletch.  More on that in Part Four.)  Our hotel was all resort-y and they did stuff like bring personal pitchers of iced lemon water the second anyone sat down by the pool.  And the staff would come by and spritz guests with Evian water and every hour or so they'd distribute Popsicles or Dippin' Dots or frozen fruit or chilled washcloths. 

We had a giant dish of little-bitty wrapped Italian candies on the coffee table in our room.  I told Fletch that if he thought I wasn't going to turn into my grandmother and dump every last one of them into my purse before we left, he was sadly mistaken.  (Then he mentioned possibly discovering 500 $1 line-item charges on our room bill and I thought better of it.)

One of the highlights was getting to hang out with my friend Amy in person.  We've known each other ever since the early days of my "All About Jen" website but we've never met.  We drank vats of wine and ate seafood I've never heard of before (scorpion fish? mullet fish?) and generally had a fantastic time.  The bonus is she let me have a CD one of her friends made when they took a girls-only road trip to Sedona because she'd already burned it onto her iPod.  I listened to her CD all the way up to my accidental vacation (Part Two) and it was like unwrapping nineteen separate Easter eggs.

The CD is a perfect blend of cheese and sing-out-loud stuff.  It's called Three AGDs and a DG (the road trip participants respective sororities) and contains the following:

Gwen Stefani - The Sweet Escape

Rihanna - Pon De Replay

J Lo - Jenny from the Block

Stacey Q - Two of Hearts (remember her??)

Justin Timberlake - Sexy Back

Nelly Furtado - Promiscuous Girl

Rihanna - SOS (Rescue Me)

Coolio - Gangster's Paradise

Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten

Fergie - Fergalicious

Britney Spears - Hit Me Baby One More Time

Beyonce - Irreplaceable

Shannon - Let the Music Play

LL Cool J - Going Back to Cali

Lisa Love - I Wonder If I Take You Home

Gwen Stefani - Hollaback Girl

Beyonce - Crazy in Love

Pink - Get the Party Started

Nelly Furtado - Say It Right

Enjoy!

*Fletch's quote when I told him what was on the play list

The first night in Vegas (after my traditional Fourth of July pool-wallow) I started getting ready to go to dinner.  I took a bath and was drying my hair when I felt a huge knot form in my throat.  While I put on my makeup and got dressed, I noticed my palms were sweating and my pulse raced.  I couldn't figure out why I was anxious until I realized I was going through all the exact same motions of being in a hotel room, getting ready for a book event.  As much as I enjoyed my tour, it was nice to just be able to put on a dress without the added pressure of having to give a speech. 

(I also recognize if it weren't for you guys, I wouldn't have been on my first vacation in six years, so THANK YOU ALL!)

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Part Two, Accidental Vacation

We were only in Vegas for three days, but that's all it took to ruin me for regular life.  I'm all, "I'm hot!  Spritz me!" but no one does.  Remember those old cruise line commercials?  They featured a bunch of people wandering around their dank gray offices, drinking crappy coffee and fighting with janky mini-blinds.  The actors kept referencing their magnificent trip, saying stuff like, "I was a king and my butler knew just how I liked my tea," and "Every day my room was filled with fresh flowers."  For me?  That commercial finally makes sense.

At the moment, my life is filled with non-functional toilets in odd places and missing walls and a thick coating of drywall dust that just won't go away with vigorous dusting.  So when my friend Stacey invited me to visit her at her family's vacation place, I grabbed a beach bag and ran to my car. 

I'm on my way and I'm happily tooling along at both a safe distance from other cars and a sensible speed (nerd alert) when I notice a box fly off the pickup truck fifty yards ahead of me.  I was far enough back that it didn't come crashing through my windshield, thank God, but there was so much traffic in the right lane that I had no where to go but forward.  I ended up hitting the box which contained a very heavy piece of furniture.

You guys? 

I got into a head-on collision with an Adirondack chair.

The pickup driver and I both pulled over.  And when the driver got out of the other car, I was gearing up to yell like I've never yelled before when he introduced himself as Reverend So-and-so. 

Perhaps you all can shout at God's emissary, but I can't.  So while he went back to his car to call the police, I was stuck muttering to myself about Reverend TossyBox from the Church of the Flying Lawn Furniture.  I was already shaken up by the time I got to Stacey's house and when the biblical-type big storm hit that evening, the only rational choice was to stay over. 

Perhaps it wasn't as big a treat to her, as I mentioned, "I hit a box of chair," at least 900 times.  Also, while we were in her pool (which is on the lip of some deep woods) I got to say one of the greatest sentences of all time:

"Dude, there's a mini-frog on your neck."

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Part Three, Deadlines

Deadlines still suck.  And they're keeping me from posting blogs more frequently.  But I figure I can do a bunch of half-assed blogs, or concentrate on a whole-ass book.

I choose whole-ass.

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Part Four, The Bathroom Situation

A leaking shower pan has led to the utter destruction of almost every place to relieve oneself in this house.  We've lost a bunch of walls and ceilings and there's studs and plywood everywhere.  We're now down two bathrooms and I'm all, "Hey, why not take out the third, too?  I can just whiz in a pail."

In Bitter (I think) I talk about looking at apartments and telling leasing agents that we need at least two baths or else I will get divorced. 

Apparently I wasn't kidding.

Don't get me wrong; Fletch is an excellent roommate and he's quite tidy in the bathroom.  He never does stuff like leaving a sink full of whiskers and always wipes off the counter when he's done.  He's actually neater than me.  My bathroom is in no way suffering from his presence and yet I HATE having him in there because I'm ridiculously territorial.  He's none too thrilled with me, either, especially every time I suggest he'd be happier using the washroom at Target or the mop sink in the basement.

So he doesn't divorce me - or possibly beat me with one of many flanges laying around here - he's taken to staying home from work until the contractor arrives.  I'd been in charge of making Important Renovation Decisions but it turns out I don't speak Contractor and the guy doing all the work thinks I'm a dingbat when I say stuff like, "you know, those drip-ity things." 

The good news is ever since Fletch took over managing communication, the work has been going swimmingly (get it?  water pun) and I hope to have him out of my bath within the week.

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Now I've sufficiently screwed around enough that I have no choice but to get back to my manuscript, thus I do not have time to come up with an ending that would have neatly tied all these unrelated topics together.  'Tis a pity. 

And because it can't be said enough:

"Dude, there's a mini-frog on your neck." 

And Speaking of Apologies

While I was on tour, a lot of you asked about Fletch.  I responded by sharing stories of his general ineptitude at taking care of himself/the household, e.g. the food poisoning incident (Part One Million) and the panic over not knowing how to deal with a maid with cat yack in her shoe and The Great Drycleaning Debacle.

In the course of this discussion, I explained my simple rule for a happy marriage.  For those of you who weren't there to hear it, my rule is to never, ever talk against your spouse when there's an actual problem.  (Bad cooking and cat puke bitchpanic don't count.)  (Actually, anything funny doesn't count.) 

When the rare Issue (as opposed to small-i issue) comes up and we get mad at each other, I don't go running to my friends or family or the internet.  I keep the Issue between us.  My thought is that if I bring someone else into my Problem, I begin to breach marital trust and drive a friend/family/internet-shaped wedge between us both.  My experience is when others get involved, people choose sides and what was an Issue becomes an ISSUE with battle lines drawn.  By keeping the problem between ourselves, the only other person I can obsess to is my partner.  There's no escalation.  Only talking to each other expedites solutions and makes for a harmonious life together. 

(Keeping this philosophy in mind, try to guess how much I liked the Sex and the City movie.  Seriously, if one glib comment kept Big from marrying Carrie, maybe the foundation of her relationship wasn't as strong as she thought, in which case she should have THANKED Miranda.)

(And the part where the kid answered the phone by saying "sex"?  UGH to the point of insulting my intelligence.) 

(And for everyone else, why are you still dressing up to view the film?  CARRIE BRADSHAW CAN'T SEE YOU IN THE AUDIENCE AND YOU'RE JUST GOING TO GET BUTTERFINGER SHARDS AND POPCORN GREASE ON YOUR PRETTY SKIRT AND SWEATER SET, NOT THAT I KNOW THIS FROM EXPERIENCE.)

Anyway, yes. 

Back to the topic at hand.

As a caveat, this keep-it-to-yourselves strategy works in my situation because generally I'm the hothead/blowhard and my spouse is usually the voice of reason.  One size of this advice may not fit all.  What will work for everyone is to learn the magic words, "I was wrong and I am sorry." Yeah, it's trite but truly, saying them can fix most anything.

And in case you're curious at my having brought up Problems and Issues, ours are rarely exciting or dramatic.  The most recent Issue occurred while I was on tour.  I convinced myself that Fletch wasn't taking care of the backyard like he should and I worked myself up into quite a lather over how I'd put all that work into making it pretty and that everything was going to die because he wasn't watering and damn it, I spent a lot of money and it's all going to go to waste and THIS IS BULLSHIT and why aren't you answering your phone to tell me everything is fine when I call you fifteen times in a row? 

(Answer?  Because he was in a meeting.)

By the way, this what I came home to:

Fletch loses no points for the graffiti-covered dumpster - that's not his doing.

If you look closely, you'll see how I re-purposed our old charcoal grill.  (Bonus points for me!)

Fine, he does lose a couple of points for the cigarette butts.

This one's my favorite. 

The shady side of the yard.

Can you see how big the tomato plant already is in the corner?  Am growing my own.  I plan to auction these salmonella-free beauties off to the highest bidder!  Who needs J.P. Morgan when I have MiracleGrow?

Again, it can't be said enough.  He did take great care of my plants while I was gone.

So I was wrong and I am sorry.

And I'm going to sell our tomato and make us rich.

Feeling Minnesota

NOTE:  THE MINNEAPOLIS PAPER HAD THE SIGNING TIME WRONG - IT'S DEFINITELY AT 7:00 PM!

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I'm going back out on the road in a few hours.  But before I go, I had to post this line from a note I got from my friend Shayla in Minneapolis:

Since you'll doubtless be surrounded by gushing adoring fans, I can also serve as the voice of reason who reminds you of the time that you got into a drunken argument with a homeless guy outside the Sears Tower (after leaving the Metropolitan Club) about his insistence that he needed $7, a figure you found to be too large, arbitrary and random and therefore worthy of argument.

I totally forgot the incident and thus have been giggling all day.

Hey, I told you guys I used to be an asshole. 

Outsource THIS

PART ONE

Brrrring!  Brrrring!

"Good morning!"

(What?  I can be pleasant in the AM, particularly now since I've got a French press coffee maker, a burr grinder, and Peet's finest.)

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"No, he's not.  May I take a message?"

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"I'm sorry he won't be home until tonight.  He's at work."

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"Specifically?  Specifically after work, my guess is after 6:00 PM.  May I ask who's calling?"

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"Well, I'm married to him so it absolutely is my business."

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"OK, don't tell me."

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"Listen, any 'serious legal matter' he's involved is probably something I should know about."

(Here's the thing; I am unfailingly polite.  That is, until you begin to waste my time.  Then all bets are off.)

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"Suit yourself, Matlock.  You can discuss your 'serious legal matter' with him when he gets home after 6:00."

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"Uh huh.  And my point is he won't be home until after 6:00 PM, so if you keep calling him before that, you will succeed only in pissing me off."

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"Excuse me, but how is telling you that I will be angry because you're blatantly disregarding what I'm telling you a threat?"

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"Yeah, then apparently your call center dwells in the land where logic does not live."

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"Nope, also not a threat."

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"You know what?  My coffee's getting cold and I have a book to write.  Bye!"

PART TWO

I use Google to look up the caller's phone number.  My search reveals it's a credit card company's collections arm. 

What? 

Collections?  We're (finally) well past the collection stage.  And I just paid all the bills on Saturday.  What on earth could this be about?  This will require some research.  Unfortunately, I can't do it until later because I've got a training session.

PART THREE

Brrrring!  Brrrring!

"Good morning!"

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"No, he's not.  May I take a message?"

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"I'm sorry he won't be home until tonight.  He's at work."

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"No, don't call back.  I'm authorized to speak for my husband and I can help you."

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"Yes, I absolutely can authorize myself."

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"According to God and the State of Nevada Gaming Commission."

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"You know what?  I'm not having a transcontinental argument about marriage vows.  We're going to resolve this right you.  You called ten times yesterday while I was out running errands.  I finally did some research and I found out that you're calling about a credit card bill for THIRTEEN DOLLARS.  That was due on MAY 30.  Which is not even a week past its due date."

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"Wrong, thirteen dollars is NOT a serious legal matter.  It's THIRTEEN DOLLARS.  Plus, I sent out bills on Saturday, so you'll receive full payment of the THIRTEEN DOLLARS, most likely today."

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"No, 'Bob,' I do not want to pay the thirteen dollars over the phone for a number of reasons.  First, I don't give out secure banking information to international strangers, second, I'm not paying by phone if it's going to incur a seven dollar convenience fee, and finally, the bill has already been paid."

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"'Bob,' you are working my last nerve."

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"Well, I'm certainly sorry you feel that way.  But I'm willing to roll the dice and bet that the American legal system has more pressing matters than a four-day-overdue debt of thirteen dollars.  Gotta go, 'Bob.'"

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"Oh, really?  Well, here's the thing.  I'm going to be home all day.  I'm trying to write and a ringing phone doesn't aid the creative process.  So, when you call back like you've promised, I'm going to answer the phone.  And I promise you I'm going to find the most pornographic thing I can on the internet and I'm going to read it to you.  Sure, it will make me uncomfortable, but I know it will make you even more so because you're not allowed to hang up.  And I'm going to skew your call statistics, too, which is likely even more offensive to you.  And then when my husband gets home, you're going to get a crash course in Army-grade yelling.  Talk to you soon!"

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He never called back. 

And I am deeply disappointed.

Fiction/Fact

What I wrote:

Dear FedEx,

Can you please leave the package between the screen and front door?  I'm home but on a conference call and might not be able to make it to the front of the house to sign.

Thanks,

Jen Lancaster

What I really meant:

Dear FedEx,

I am napping. 

Again. 

I know. 

But frankly, I'm as tired as you are of seeing me in my pajamas, so please just leave my stuff here between the doors and we'll both be spared our routine ten seconds of awkward conversation.

Thanks,

Jen Lancaster

You Are Seriously Trying My Patience, Illinois

I had to go back to bed today because I kept shaking and I couldn't warm up.  I figured I had the flu.

Turns out I'm fine.  Apparently I felt cold because it's forty freaking degrees here today after being eighty-something yesterday.

Illinois, you are officially on notice.

And What I've Been Right About? EVERYTHING ELSE

Setting:  My kitchen, doing dinner prep last Monday.

Me:  (peeling asparagus) (which makes it SO tender, be sure and try it next time) Hey, I had THE best workout today. 

Fletch:  Yeah?  What'd you do?

Me:  Well, when I walked into the gym trainers Tino and Mike greeted me by saying, "One thousand!"  So I was all, "One thousand!" back to them, figuring it was some expression I'd never heard.  Then I see Barbie and she explains we're going to do a one-thousand rep workout, meaning ten exercises one hundred times each.  And not easy exercises - I'm talking lunges and squats and stuff.

Fletch: (emptying the dishwasher) I bet that went over well with you.

Me:  Riiight.  When Barbie told me about the hundred push-ups, I was, like, "What, am I in the Army now?"

Fletch:  (shoulders still sore from three years worth of military service) You know nothing of push ups.

Me:  Whatev.  Anyway, I knew I was going to have a super-tough day so I bought an energy drink.  I expected it to have the Hot Orange Death flavor like the Ripped to the Max stuff I bought last summer, but it was good.  I mean, SO good I would drink it just to drink it.  Plus, it gave me so many strongs that not only did I complete my thousand reps, but then I burned another 1020 calories on the treadmill afterward, with running and everything!  I mean, seriously, one thousand reps AND one thousand calories?  That shit is AMAZING.

Fletch:  Impressive!  What'd you drink?  Liquid amphetamines?

Me:  Practically.  What I had was TnTea, lemon flavor. 

Fletch:  (pauses with a clean colander in his hand)  You're kidding. 

Me:  Um, no.  Why would I kid about an energy drink?

Fletch:  (incredulous) TnTea.

Me:  Yep.

Fletch:  You realize TnTea is the supplement I used all summer.  Remember?  I kept trying to get you to taste it because I thought you'd like it and you flat-out refused.  Why?  Why would you refuse? 

Me:  Huh.  Must have thought it looked yucky.  Yet I was so very wrong.

Fletch:  (sputtering)  But!  But!  You wouldn't even take a sip.  Not one goddamned sip.

Me:  And too bad for me because it was delicious!  It gave me so much energy!  I'm actually still vibrating like a hummingbird.

Fletch:  (in a bit of a lather, if you want to know the truth)  So why would you not even TASTE it? 

Me:  (rinsing the asparagus) I dunno.

Fletch:  Even after I PROMISED you you'd like it?  We got to the point I told you I'd give you a dollar or let you take a swing at me if you didn't.

Me:  (shrugs) Beats me.  Maybe you should have been more persistent.

Fletch:  Short of pouring it down your throat, I could not have been more persistent.

Me:  Yet it's a shame I didn't try it sooner because I loved it!

Fletch:  (bangs head against cabinet)

* * *

The point of this little vignette is twofold - first, it demonstrates exactly how stubborn I am when I believe I'm right.  Second, the fact I'm such a good sport when finally proved wrong makes me all the more aggravating.  So, in the spirit of not annoying the bejesus out Fletch and others (and before my stupid opinions/actions become an issue) I'm publicly admitting I was wrong about the following:

* Purchasing an entire case of Hot Orange Death-flavored Ripped to the Max.   

* Promising I'd use our treadmill every day.  (In my defense I would have, if the basement didn't smell so much like pee.)

* Insisting we purchase TV trays (now languishing in the pee-pee basement next to the lonely, pristine treadmill) because I didn't realize I'd rather eat off a real table or the ottoman.

* Putting fancy underwear on the cover of the new book.  Apparently a number of people (who aren't me) find products from places like La Perla and Victoria's Secret and Cosabella and Agent Provocateur appealing.  Huh.  Who knew?

* The Indianapolis 500, which takes place at the end of May every year... except on a leap year and maybe I should have actually looked at the calendar rather than just calling my publicist in a huge panic about Indy hotel rooms.  (Fletch gets partial blame for this one.)

* Jean jackets.  But not Crocs.  Crocs still ROCK. 

* Two and a Half Men, which I refused to watch for five years, despite my father insisting it's the funniest show on television.  (BTW, the crush I developed on Charlie Sheen in the '80s?  Is back.  Hard.  Also?  I'm delighted to see how well Jon Cryer has aged in comparison to Andrew McCarthy, who appears to have been let out of his crypt to film Lipstick Jungle.  Oh, Duckie, Molly Ringwald would totally choose you now.)

* Organic produce and dairy.  Also?  Anything soy-based.   

* Letting the book Middlesex sit on my shelf for two years because I thought it looked dull.  (And what's more boring than Pulitzer Prize-winning novels about hermaphrodites?  Um, everything, that's what.)

* Chicken Cacciatore, which Fletch tricked me into eating by calling it "Hunter's stew," only revealing its true name/nature after I'd licked the plate clean.

* Thinking I'd be happier watching Flavor of Love 3 in high-def.  (I have one word for you - SPITTLE.  High-def Flavor Flav spittle.  Gah.)

And... I think that's everything.  Now it's your turn - what would you like to publicly admit you've been wrong about?  Pilates?  Recycling?  Finally buying pants one size up?  Rock the Cradle or any other fine, fine VH1 programming?

The comments section awaits your confessions.      

P.S.  One thousand reps followed by eighty minutes/one thousand calories in the same session?  Justine can SUCK IT.

   

Wednesdays with Stacey

Setting:  Stacey's house, last night during our weekly Top Chef/Project Runway/Whatever Bravo Tells Us to Watch get-together.  I'm panicking about the idea of spending three weeks on book tour and she's trying to help me find practical solutions so I don't get so wigged out. 

Stacey:  What about luggage?  Do you have good luggage?

Me:  Not really.

Stacey:  Get a TravelPro bag.  I've got the Platinum series and it was worth every dime.

Me:  Yeah, but...

Stacey:  Too expensive?

Me:  No, it's just that I saw these really cute bags in a catalog and they're flowered and striped and all the colors in them would match my polo shirts.

Stacey: (blinks and stares)

Me:  Wait, real road warriors don't worry about matching their shirts to their bags, do they?

Stacey:  Um, no.  But what catalog was it?

Me:  I'm sort of embarrassed to tell you.  When I got it I didn't look at the cover.  As I was thumbing through it and I looked at the furniture and linens and stuff, I was all, 'This stuff is SO the real me!'   

(pause) 

Turns out it was a Pottery Barn TEEN catalog. 

(pause) 

Meaning I have the design aesthetic of a twelve year old girl.

Stacey:  (nodding) From the suburbs.

(conversation continues, I obsess more)

Stacey:  ... and I try not to sleep on the plane because that will wreak havoc later when I try to go to bed in the hotel.

Me:  Oh, no.  I can never sleep.  I have to be awake and using my mind-power to keep the plane in the air.

Stacey:  (pause)  Oh.  Yes.  Of course.  Another good idea is to not drink on the plane because you're already going to be dehydrated and flying will just make it worse and that will mess with your sleeping, too.

Me:  No, no, I have to drink or I get too nervous.

Stacey:  I see.  And the drinking doesn't interfere with your, um, mind-power?

Me:  Nope.  I steer the plane better drunk.

(conversation continues, I obsess more)

Stacey:  What are you going to be wearing to your events?

Me:  Hopefully it will be warm and I can wear my standard summer uniform of black or khaki shorts and a pastel polo shirt.  But what do I do if it's cold?

Stacey:  Maybe you could bring a little trench?

Me:  But if I wore a trench over shorts, I'd look like a flasher.

Stacey:  Bring some Capri's to wear.

Me:  But I want to wear my shorts so everyone can see that I have nice calf muscles.

Stacey:  (sigh)  Um, fine, then why don't you pack a cute jean jacket?

Me:  OK... but I'd have to go back to 1985 to get it.  Bah! BAH HA HA HA HA!

Stacey:  (tight lipped)  Right.  Then how about-

Me:  BAH HA HA HA!  1985!  HA!

Stacey:  Maybe you could-

Me:  HA!  JEAN JACKET!  GET IT?  NO ONE'S WORN ONE SINCE 1985!  GET IT?  HA HA HA!!

Stacey:  (gives my brilliant humor a small nod and then tries to continue, unsuccessfully)  So-

Me:  HA!  HAA!!  1985!  I'D BETTER PACK MY TRAVELPRO TIME MACHINE!  HA!!

(finally composing myself five minutes later) 

Me:  Oh, wait.  This is why no one ever wants to help me with anything, isn't it?

 

 

Sunday Mourning

So...

Yes.

Apparently I sent some email last night.  Before I show you what actually went out, here's the message I was trying to communicate:

Hi, Angie,

What's happening?  Hope all is well with you!  I feel like I haven't talked to you forever because I've been so freaking busy.  And not good-busy with a lot fun chores - rather I've been caught up doing 10,000 things I don't particularly like.  Blah.

The good news is I was finally able to cut loose this evening.  My gym hosted a party at the Fulton Lounge and Fletch and I went.  BTW, did I ever mention this place before?  It's a way-too-hip-for-me bar in the West Loop with a lot of low benches, flattering lighting, supermodel cocktail servers, and the most amazing girly-foo-foo seasonal martini menu featuring flavors like pumpkin spice, Key lime, holly berry, etc.  So good!  So, so good!   

I hadn't been there for a while because I had, um, kind of gotten kicked out last time I was there.  Let me just say this - if you own a bar and choose to decorate the area by the fireplace with a bunch of encyclopedias from the '80s and you serve me fifteen banana cream pie martinis, well, then don't be surprised when it suddenly strikes me as a fine idea to tear out all the pictures of Ronald Reagan and stuff them in my purse. 

(Fletch said I also stole a bottle of cleaning supplies from there that time, but that is untrue.  I bribed the restroom attendant $10 to let me take it.  I mean, come on, in huge type the can promised that one squirt would stop the spread of HIV!  How often do you actually encouter A REAL-LIFE CAN OF COOTIE SPRAY?  I had to have it!)  (Also, there may have been an additional conflagration later that night with the cootie spray and the cab driver but the details are - rim shot! - foggy.)

So, last night passed without incident, except for when I tried to lure away the bar's pit bull/English bulldog mix mascot.  (The dog wasn't interested and the bouncer was kind of a jerk about it, if you want to know the truth.)  But we were totally leaving anyway so it was fine.

I came home, played with my own enthusiastic dogs, had one Lean Cuisine (fine, I ate three and burned my mouth, shut up) and then went to bed with a small stomach ache. But all in all, it was a great night.

Talk soon,

Jen

So, yeah.  That's what I meant to say.  But here's how the above comes out after a supermodel over-served me a flight of candy-coated, ice-creamy martinis:

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Hey, at least I didn't make a bunch of phone calls.  (Or, wait, did I?)

What sucks is now I'm going to have to work a trip to Betty Ford into my busy schedule. 

Blah.

Cause, Meet Effect, Effect, Meet Shovel

I've finally pinpointed the cause of this weekend's inflated aggression level. 

The problem stems from watching too much boxing.  First, I saw the Klitchko/Ibragimov flight from last week (give Ibragimov a step-ladder to stand on next time, please) and then I moved on to the Marquez/Vasquez match (less blood next time, please) and then I watched some cage fights in between going out front to shake my shovel at passers-by in a menacing manner. 

I suspect people like me who are already way too aggressive for their own good should not be encouraged (allowed?) to watch grown men bashing the bejesus out of each other, as it gives them ideas.

Also?  Fletch made me put my shovel back in the garage. 

It's nice to know at least one rational adult lives in this house.

(But I'm not apologizing for scolding the lady at the Fresh Market.  I guarantee that bitch will remember to use her inside voice next time...)

 

Greek Tragedy!!!

While digging through some old boxes in the basement today I ran across a yellowed, fragile, vaguely moldy document titled Jen's Manual for a Stellar Rush (Be a Shining Star!!!)  I wrote this guidebook almost twenty years ago and probably haven't looked at it since.  I put this together back when I was my sorority's rush chairman.  My intention was to create a central source of hints and tips to help navigate my sorority sisters through the tricky waters of THE BESTEST RUSH EVAH!!!  (ed. For you non-Greeks, rush is a membership drive.) 

I recall being SO damn proud of all the effort I'd put into the booklet, going so far as to call it my first masterpiece.

Um, yeah.

I immediately forgot what I'd been searching for and I sat down to read, laughing the entire way through.  The yellowed pages hold such a noxious mix of self importance and the lack of self awareness, I can't not share the highlights, if for no reason other than to revisit my first true love... the exclamation point.

Feel free to laugh and mock at what's below - 'tis not undeserved.  Here we go:

On Attitude

I want all of you to ENJOY rush, not DREAD it!!!  Please keep in mind that I appreciate any and all suggestions.  (ed. I guarantee you this was a lie.)  What I will NOT tolerate is negativity about rush.  I don't want to hear complaints that "we never did it that way before."  We are going to be BREAKING NEW GROUND (ed. !!!) with this rush and I expect everyone to have a positive attitude about it.  (ed. Or I will GIVE you a positive attitude about it.)  Change can be good.  Also?  Please stop calling me Hitler!!!

On Entertainment

You WILL know all of the words to all of the songs!!!  There is no excuse NOT to know the words.  When you are singing, you are representing your SPIRIT in Pi Beta Phi!!!  Not knowing the words makes us look BAD and is INEXCUSABLE!!!  All of the songs are at the back of this packet, so feel free to practice them in the shower.  We will also be singing them at the workshops so you WILL know the tunes!!!  (ed. Beatings will continue until morale improves.)

On Grooming

Please pay special attention to your grooming.  Ideally, I would like to see everyone in AT LEAST blush, mascara, and lipstick!!!  Obviously we don't want to present ourselves as something we are not, BUT we do want to make a good impression.  Use of these basic cosmetics will make it look like we care about ourselves and that we care about looking nice for the rushees.  This is not an outrageous request and I don't want to hear a lot of flack about it!!!  (ed. And they didn't complain... at least not to my face.)

On Conversation

No matter how good our skits, songs, decor, and food are, the rushees will remember WHAT we said the most!!!  We need to make every word count because we are on a limited time budget.  So, you need to make your conversation work for you.  But don't oversell Pi Phi!!!  Not every girl will make it into Pi Beta Phi (ed.  The horror!!!) so we don't want to make them die for something they won't be able to have.  (ed. We'll save that for a Tori Spelling movie on Lifetime.)

On Fun Questions to Ask Rushees

After asking the requisite "What's your major?" and "Where did you go to high school?" you may find yourself at a loss for words with your rushee.  (This is not good!!!)  (ed. I like how I had to note that this wasn't good, as though my sisters might not realize big lapses in conversation were awkward.)  Hence, I have come up with a number of questions you may want to ask.  These questions will keep you comfortably chatting 'til the cows come home.  (Hey!  Keep the Delta Gammas out of it!!!)  (ed. Hey!  Way to perpetuate negative stereotypes about catty sorority girls!!!)

- Why did you decide to rush?

- Is college what you expected?

- Had any trouble finding parking? (ed. Way to get a scintillating conversation started!)

- Do you have any pets?

- What ever happened to Kiefer and Julia?  (ed. This is only notable because it highlights my decades-long pretend love affair with Mr. Sutherland.)

- What is your fave flavor of cream?  (ed. Not favorite.  FAVE.  Duh.)

- Ever been to Paris? 

- Where do you work?

- Are your parents cool?

- If you could only get one TV show (because you were stuck on some island) (ed. Because, yeah, that's going to happen.) what would it be and why?

- Do you like Paula Abdul?

- What do you think about stirrup pants?

- If someone were to pay you $10,000 would you pose nude for Playboy?  Even if your parents would never find out?

- How old were you when you found out there was not Santa Claus?

- If you had to be some type of fruit, what would it be?  (ed. Really?  With this attention to biting and incisive interview questions, I have no idea why I'm not already a host on The View.)

- Do you consider tomatoes to be a fruit?  (ed. The answer is NO because you would not put tomatoes on a fruit salad.)

- If you could pick your own name, what would it be?

- Do you ski?  Alpine, Nordic, or water?  (ed. Pretentious much?)

- What's your fave season?  (ed. Ah, the weather.  The last bastion of the truly boring, completely banal conversation.)

- What is your dream car?

- Do you have any siblings?

- More specifically, cute, 21 to 25 year old, with a good personality AND a gold AMEX, just dying to date a Pi Phi brothers?  (ed.  Obviously I was ALL ABOUT the sisterhood and was in no way, shape, or form in it to meet boys.)

- And when may I meet him?  (ed. Oh, wait.)

- Do you like corn chowder?  (ed.  Sadly, not a double entendre.  I'd just discovered this kind of soup and was a bit obsessive about it.)

- Do you like Fresca?  (ed. Seriously, this is getting painful.)

- If Jason Priestly were to walk into this room right now, what would you do?

- What about Richard Grieco?  Richard Gere?  Dan Quayle?  (ed. I'd probably ask Richard Grieco for a Fresca.)

- How do they get those ships in those little bottles?

- If you could eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?  Pez, cherry flavor, right?  (ed. I guess someone saw Stand by Me, yes?)

- What's the dumbest thing you ever bought?

- What are your hobbies?

- (ed. And now, the big closer, the one question that could potentially affect a rushee's entire future within the sorority, thus her college career and possibly even life beyond that!!!) How do you eat your Oreos?  (ed.  SHAMEFUL.)

* * *

The great irony here is I always thought it was my sorority sisters who were the assholes when they used to call me Hitler. 

Also?  They only elected me rush chair for one semester.  Suddenly, this makes a lot more sense.